I needed some new undershirts and tanks for Lolo as she is growing so fast. I searched online for onesies in 24 months and could not find them anywhere. I thought,
Geesh they all stop at 18 months, I hate that. The thing is, Lolo isn't potty trained "
yet" so she's still in diapers. And, I just hate to see kids bending over and playing and you can see their backs and their diapers. I think they need undershirts, and at her age one that snaps so it doesn't lift up. I know, I know, I'm crazy about the littlest things. It's just that I notice everything and I always pay attention to the smallest detail, it really annoys people in my life; it's always been who I am.
I went into the Children's Place looking for undershirts but they didn't have any for tots. My goodness, they're just going to lump my precious baby into the "Kid" phase with no warning? I want my baby to remain a toddler therefore I want something that snaps. Make it SNAP please!!!! Like you're called the "Children's Place" why wouldn't you have undershirts for tots?
Luckily, there was a Carter's store a few stores down. I go in Carter's and instantly see undershirts, I grab them all in her size, some that snap, some that don't, different styles and different colors. Whooo Hoooo!!!!
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At that moment the sales lady comes to me and says,
"OMG are you shopping for your daughter?". I said,
"uhh yeah, I am". She said to me, "I cannot believe you are shopping for 2T already". I just smile, still a bit confused to who she was
. She explains, "I remember when she was in your belly and you would come in here every weekend, glowing with starry eyes, picking up everything that was soft and pink". I laughed, "aww really, you remember that?".... "Yeah you would stop in every row, pick up everything and just smile". Then she said, "now you're just in here picking up what you need". We both laughed. Said our pleasantries and she walked away.
It was at that moment that I realized I had become "
Jaded". I do remember there was a time where I was so happy to shop for the littlest things, I took my time. Everything tickled me. She was my first born my everything. It's almost like I lost appreciation for the fact that she is still that little baby that was inside of me. She is still the person who had me 'glowing and starry eyed'. Now don't get me wrong, this little girl keeps a permanent smile on my heart but I was over the '
awww look at that phase'.
I ran in Carter's to get what I needed and was on my way out. Not stopping to appreciate that I was so very lucky to be raising the person that I created. It's just that sometimes motherhood can be challenging, we're so tired with balancing our own lives and then trying to give our children the best life possible. So it's easy to become
Jaded.
Moms, Aunties, Grandma's, dads too, we have to remember that as our children grow up, we still have to keep that glow and passion in our eyes. Take time to smell the roses. Let's vow to continue to smell their blankets, and kiss between their toes (even though they're walking now and that's nasty)
, let's continue to sing nursery lullabies even if they're more advanced now and they'd prefer to listen to Beyonce
(Yeah sorry, not sorry), but my point is, let's always try to remember the moments we would walk around aimlessly rubbing our bellies and just smiling; 'glowing with starry eyes'.
Because... though they're walking, talking, getting into trouble, or in high school, college, grown, married or whatever; they're still our children and they're still the baby we cried over when we heard their first heartbeat.
#ThatsSOJaded
-Jae
and walks away; diapers at her ankles, bare booty just fading into the darkness....
